The Beginning

I have been meaning to get this under way for months, I even started but never got arround to actually making a post. It is the wee hours of the morning and another sleepless morning so I thought instead of laying in bed letting my mind get carried away with to many things I would start to write them instead, so here goes.

My darling husband (corny I know but true) and I are expecting our first Baby in 17 weeks... I feel like it is taking forever. I am sure that as it gets closer to the day time will start to fly. I feel many different things about having a baby... part of me wishes that there was still more time to do the things that we wanted to do before kids... part of me is so excited that I sometimes feel like I am going to burst and then there is part of me that is so petrified that I feel sick in my Tummy. I am scared about labour - not that I can do anything to avoid it... only try to make it better - I am scared about what kind of mother I will be. If our baby will have a connection with me, how much a baby is going to change my relationship with the love of my life... I am sure these are all feelings that most women will at some stage of pregnacy will feel or experience. I have to admit my better half is very supportive and is overwhelmingly excited. He even said to me last night after watching a news report on Post Natial Depression, if I would ever tell him if I was to feel this way... It wasn't a question of 'would you tell me' it was more a plea 'please tell me'. I am so greatful to be blessed with this wonderful person in my life. To walk side-by-side with and hand-in-hand.

I think the closer to the D-day it becomes the more excited I become mainly because now I can feel our baby kicking and sometimes if it kicks hard enough Hubby and feel it to as we discovered this week. We are also lucky enough to have a 3rd scan as baby was to comfy to move last time so not all of Baby's body could be properly scaned or seen.We hope to find out what it will be... I thought for a long time that I would want to keep it a supprise and I guess part of me still does but when ever I look at baby clothes and the like I think how nice it would be to now... We have at least one full name for each sex so we are set either way though I secretly (ok so it is not a secret) want it to be a boy. But don't get me wrong i would be totally stocked with a girl.

I haven't been scrappin a lot lately for a number of reasons mainly because I have suffered from siatica from almost the start of my pregancy and sitting on a backless chair was not an option at the time. But now that I have that under control and I have stolen a chair from the Dinning room table i have been tinkering around finishing old projects and doing a page here or there. I am starting to get back into it... though I need to get my creative jucies flowing again which is a little harder now that I have baby brain... they tell me it only gets worse from here so heaven help me... Hubby has let me get some new supplies, well when I say let I went and got new supplies and he just looked at me and smiles and said 'I love you', so he let me. With new toys in hand i hope to make some marvelious creations and use up some of thoes old printed photos that seem to be gathering dust on my scrappin desk. Mind you I only found these photos amoung other things because I had to clean my scrappin desk so that i get my new supplies out and have a look at them. Actually come to think of it i might do some scrappin this morning while I wait for Hubby to wake up or should I say I go and wake him up :)